Adventures in La La Land

1. Another wonderful week of summer. Honestly I'm torn between cherishing every moment of summer vacation and feeling so ready for school to start. Haha. This week we spent a lot of time at the pool: 2. Tuesday was another rough depression day for me. I was questioning every parenting decision I've ever made, and overwhelmed by prepping for this dumb garage sale. But Wednesday we had such a great day. Levi and Nova played so nicely together all day (which tends to be a rarity). They entertained themselves with Legos and drawing while I sorted through years worth of accumulated junk. 3. On Thursday, Sister-in-Law Esther and I went to the beach. I was anxious about parking because I don't have a recreation pass on my license plate, and apparently that's required now. But the girl in the booth let me buy a pass on the spot. It was $18, but will last until I renew my plates. We're going to have to go to the beach a couple more times before October to get our money's

1. I had a bad week. My depression was out of control. I slept way too much, accomplished way too little, and was a bad mom all week. It's the magical 6-week mark of school being out - like a switch is flipped on my mental health. I've said this in the past too. I can only handle about 6 weeks of life unstructured. I started to panic about the sameness of my days, knowing I have to get up tomorrow and do it all over again: fight with Levi about screen time, do dishes and laundry again , break up fights between Lena and Levi, make dinner that no one will eat again . I'm not ready to go back to school yet, and I'm certainly  not ready to be done with summer weather, but I need to fill up my calendar for the next five weeks or something to keep busy.  This was me all week. 2. I also didn't work for two weeks. And I'm coming to realize that working is good for me - just those few hours where I get out of the house three times a week make a big difference - even if i