The Saturday 7

1. I've been on a dystopian kick lately. I read the sequel to the book I wrote about last week. And I started the series Jamie recommended (Life as We Knew It). I suddenly feel the need to stockpile canned goods and bottled water. I was worried that we don't have a water source very close to our house, until I went for a walk today and remembered there's a creek right across the street! Although, truth be told, we'd probably leave our house in town. I'd either go live with my brother on the lake, or Krindi and her cows, chickens, and woodstove. She's in the woods so we'd have lots of firewood, but I'm not sure about a water source. Better do some more research. 😂

2. Thinking about a future without Internet or electricity made me wonder about the longevity of my blog. I've been writing this thing for 10 years! I'd be so sad to lose it all. Thinking about that had me going back to the beginning to re-read it from the start, and it reminded me why I love having the record of my life. I'd forgotten how seriously poor we used to be. Haha. I wrote about how $200 of groceries lasted us a month. I also wrote about many of the times I didn't think we'd be able to pay our bills, but God provided - through side jobs and propane overpayment and escrow overpayment. At one point, I wrote that we had $28 in our account. Another time, when my van died we had $8 in our savings account! And yet, we never went into foreclosure, never had our electricity turned off, never struggled to find something to eat. It's a great reminder of how God continually provided for us.

3. It's also been a little hard to read my old entries, though, and remember how much Lucy used to love me. We were best friends, and we adored each other. This summer has been hard again. Things were going better during the school year, but we've regressed again. I miss my little girl. And I'm terrified that in a few years I'm going to be mourning my relationships with Lena and Levi. 😭😭

4. We didn't go to the pool at all this week! It has rained almost non-stop all week. I wonder if the pool misses us and much as we miss it . . . We did manage to have one fun outing yesterday: