13 Weeks

Baby is the size of a peach this week!

How far along? 13 weeks
Total weight loss/gain: +1 lb. this week, +2 overall
Maternity clothes? Some shirts. I just bought some regular shorts a couple sizes bigger than I normally wear to get me through the summer. Maternity shorts are so ugly.
Sleep: Fine, except for the night sweats. So gross. 
Best moment this week: Nothing too exciting this week.
Movement: Still nothing definite.
Food cravings: Burger King fries with ranch, chips, fruity/fizzy drinks. 
Food aversions: Nothing really. I love food.
Gender: Unknown. I think it's a girl, but everyone else thinks it's a boy. 
Labor Signs: None
Belly Button in or out? Out 
What I miss: Drinking as much Dr Pepper as I want without feeling guilty about it. My normal digestion. 
What I am looking forward to: Feeling movement. 
Milestones: I don't think there were any major milestones this week. 


I'll be honest, that I haven't really let myself get too attached to this baby. I go into every doctor's appointment steeling myself for disappointment, and find myself saying "If everything works out, the baby will be here in January" and stuff like that. 


Plus, I've been really nervous about having 2 kids. I know it's so ridiculous. People have been doing it since the beginning of time, I have lots of experience with multiple kids, etc. But I am somewhat terrified of figuring out all the logistics. How are Lucy and the baby going to share a room without waking each other up? How am I going to take 2 kids grocery shopping? Will Lucy feel replaced? Will the new baby get even half the attention Lucy did as a newborn? How am I going to breastfeed all the time with a 2 year old? Is she going to get stuck watching TV 24/7? Am I ever going to sleep?? 


I'm also surprisingly nervous about surviving this pregnancy. I loved being pregnant with Lucy and have been looking forward to being pregnant again for a long time. But now that I'm getting so big so fast, I'm really starting to wonder if I'm going to be a miserable wreck. I slept a ton during my pregnancy with Lucy. I'm not really going to have as many options for that this time. How am I going to lug Lucy around with a ginormous belly? How am I going to get her in the carseat or the cart at Meijer or give her a bath? 


All that is to say . . . I'm finally starting to get really excited for this baby. I signed up for the babycenter weekly email updates last night. And I was looking at pictures of Lucy as a newborn remembering all the snuggling and sweet little yawns and stretches. I'm looking forward to nursing again, too. I'm still semi-terrified about figuring everything out, but now more than ever I'm really excited. :-)